Post BtVS "The Gift." Set during the summer after Buffy's death, Xander struggles to come to terms with the resurrection spell in light of the reality of Buffy's death and his changing feelings for Spike.
Published: 02/05/07 Updated: 02/06/07
1. Chapter 1 by Crazydiamondsue [Reviews - 1] 
(1661 words)
Doubt the stars are fire…but never doubt I love is from
Hamlet, Act II Scene II
2. Chapter 2 by Crazydiamondsue [Reviews - 0] (1637 words)
3. Chapter 3 by Crazydiamondsue [Reviews - 0] (1533 words)
Some dialogue from BtVS Season 2 "Passion"
4. Chapter 4 by Crazydiamondsue [Reviews - 0] (2369 words)
5. Chapter 5 by Crazydiamondsue [Reviews - 0] (4636 words)
6. Chapter 6 by Crazydiamondsue [Reviews - 0] (2765 words)
“Closer” by NIN
“Laid” by James
“Ball and Chain” by Social Distortion
“I Hope You Dance” by LeAnn Womack
7. Chapter 7 by Crazydiamondsue [Reviews - 0] (2126 words)
8. Chapter 8 by Crazydiamondsue [Reviews - 0] (4777 words)
9. Chapter 9 by Crazydiamondsue [Reviews - 0] (3617 words)
Lyrics from “Never Been to Me” by Charlene
Stargazer Lilies are a nod to Tabaqui's story Changes
10. Chapter 10 by Crazydiamondsue [Reviews - 0] (4917 words)
11. Chapter 11 by Crazydiamondsue [Reviews - 0] (3133 words)
Some dialogue from BtVS "Spiral" and "The Gift"
12. Chapter 12 by Crazydiamondsue [Reviews - 0] (6941 words)
"The undiscovered country..." is from Hamlet, Act III, Scene i
The Xander & Willow scene owes greatly to the sound-boarding of Ladycat777
13. Chapter 13 by Crazydiamondsue [Reviews - 0] (3733 words)
14. Chapter 14 by Crazydiamondsue [Reviews - 0] (5359 words)
15. Chapter 15 by Crazydiamondsue [Reviews - 0] (6356 words)
A few dialogue paraphrases from BtVS "Bargaining"
Sections of the initial Spike/Xander scene co-written with Yindagger
16. Chapter 16 by Crazydiamondsue [Reviews - 0] (4040 words)
"Ambition is a good servant, but a bad master," is from Little House on the Prairie: These Happy Golden Years
Lyrics from "Closing Time" by Semisonic
17. Chapter 17 by Crazydiamondsue [Reviews - 0] (6845 words)
Chapter owes greatly to sound-boarding from Ladycat777 and Yindagger.
Some dialogue references from BtVS "After Life"
"You green girl. The one who would smile and smile and be a villain," paraphrased from Hamlet Act One Scene III
"And when sorrows come, they come in bloody batallions," paraphrased from Hamlet Act Four Scene V
"This is the very ecstasy of love," paraphrased from Hamlet Act Two Scene I
